Stress Levels

My smoking is going slightly overboard as the stress levels rise in the office over work. I have a project proposal to type up, while having to finish off some documentation work (aka hunting for a particular person to sign documents) and all the while serving as an office boy for my assistant manager. I think I'm now at the stage of a 25 pcs pack per 2 days.

However, I wonder if my head is screwed on right, for all while going through this, I'm actually getting weird opinions on romance and life in general. It's a part of my procrastination, I suspect. It just keeps cycling and cycling until I catch myself, and then I try to re-focus only to drift off in another direction. In fact, the conversation in my head goes as follows:
"Hmm, I want a bishounen as a boyfriend. *searches wiki article on bishounen* You know, maybe someone cute looking like Tomohisa Yamashita or Lee Dong-Hae *googles Dong-Hae*. Remember Juno? He was quite a cute dish *opens Juno's FB*, but then his features were lacking in finesse. In fact, I think I should get this 10kgs off *checks out wiki article on abdominal adipose tissue* and start dressing bishie as well, it's not like I don't have the looks *opens own FB for old photos*, just that sitting in front of the pantry in office and late night snacks are getting to me. Maybe a 1800 calorie diet should do. *clicks around the web for diet advice*... (continues for another hour)... ... Shit, I've been checking out stuff that I shouldn't have while I should have been researching on my proposal *head-desk*"

Oh, which by the way, I haven't seen nor heard from bf in a month, due to the hectic work life and distance. He's not replying my smses as well. Wonder what's going on. :/

Moving out

Hectic is the only adjective that I can think of to describe my current situation. The level of commitment that is required of me is worrisome to the extent that I'm wondering if I could only find a TARDIS somewhere hiding inconspicuously for my own pleasurable use.

I have moved out of my comfy room in the family house, and moved into the flat. Yes, the one I have been moaning about. Lucky for me, birds have stopped using the balcony as their communal toilet, though some of the yobs still do. The crawling fungal infestation seemed to have stopped. I guess the landlady showed them the door. The cement floor's still a cement floor, but I stopped by the wholesale district the other day to buy some bamboo mats, which helped a lot.

Now comes the issue. J has moved in as well with his dad, bf and Hong upon my invitation, which gives the place a nice cheery tinge. Makes me feel better to come home to a house where my close friends are around. However, I'm concerned over the fact that I'm the only one with a car and that the house is not exactly the coolest during the afternoons. Moreover, the wireless broadband signals suck in that area, and that we're like 20km away from "civilisation".

On top of that, I guess I spent a bomb on groceries etc. setting up the house, and am prolly gonna start living on biscuits and water for the next 2 weeks. LOL. Nah, I'm exaggerating. I go home almost every other week to raid the pantry, so it's not so much of an issue about groceries, but I'm slightly unnerved that the cost involved with 'freedom' is so high.

On the other hand, at work, it's slightly worrisome as my assistant manager who is above me is sort of keeping out of the loop from projects while the manager is too high up to see me around. I'm concerned with the amount of office politics that is floating around, though I'm lucky to have an eye and an ear from the MD and CFO whose children I'm teaching Mandarin as a favour and extra income.

Speaking of office politics, I finally get to meet most of the white collar staff here during a Team Building event last week. We ended up getting stranded in the middle of a forest resort, and were forced to climb a small hill every morning to get to the seminar room. But all's well ends well as I finally got to have a first hand encounter with the whole management structure in the company. Interesting thought.

And to conclude, some random pics I took from the chalets.

$$$ *cash register ring*

Just found out what my manager is earning from 'accidently' opening his payslip when I was looking for something for him (who is incidentally in Jakarta) on his desk. Damn. If things are this good here, I'm staying for a nice long while. LOL. Might even buy a house with white-washed fences, and a bloody BMW. LOL

In other news, I'm bracing for the move on the 28th. But I'm still anxious over the rough cement floor. yikes. wonder what should I do with it... *pouts*

Of moving and home improvement projects

I'm on the verge of moving over to Bangi, which is currently 65km from my house. The main rationale behind moving is due to the fact that driving to and from work every day kills much brain cells, and by the time I get home, I'm usually too tired do anything other than flop on the bed and act like a corpse, and I'm sure I'll get an Oscar or two for my flawless performace.

Of course, the other reason would be that I need space away from family. My first taste of freedom back in 02, 03 made me realise how cramped I am with them. We are just so different, and I can hardly stand being in a room with them for less than an hour before I have to get out. Not that I don't appreciate them, but like most breathtaking scenery and artwork made from animal/human waste, it's better to take a huge step back, preferably from the next continent, to experience them.

The place isn't exactly the Ritz. The last I saw it, it had bird droppings all over the floor, door and doorknob of the laundry, mounds of mouldering "sentimental mementos" of the owner, an outhouse-looking WC in house, and assorted shades of fungi growing. Not to mention rough cement floors.

As far as bird droppings go, I have nothing against them, in fact I love to have them around, provided that are located in the nearest landfill or up where the sun doesn't shine in an ornithoid. And as you know I love fungi, I used to do research on them. But I prefer if they don't have the capability of waving back. Thank goodness the owners would be cleaning the house, not me.

Lastly, rough cement floors. For the record, I love cement floors. I had been dreaming of cement and throw rugs. But not only is the cement floor so rough, I'd probably be able to do my pedicure by rubbing my nails and foot on the floor, but I'm sure a surefire cure for corns is to walk around the house barefooted.

But who am I to complain. I'm getting the house dirt cheap. RM250 per month for a three-roomed flat. and besides, I'm getting to stay alone. <3

From sabethea
"In memory of family and friends who have lost the battle with cancer; and in support of the ones who continue to conquer it! Post this on your LJ if you know someone who has or had cancer. 93% won't copy and paste this. Will you?"*

Grandmother, stomach cancer, mid 2000s
Cousin's godmother, breast cancer, mid 2000s
Grandmother's god-daughter, stomach cancer, early 2000s

I'm attaching Melissa and Ade's tribute to breast cancer on SYTYCD, which I find fitting. :)

New Year's Resolutions 2010

It is kind of silly of me that I've been asking my friends about their New Year's resolution for 2010, but yet I've yet to set even a single one myself.

After some prodding and self-introspection, I've come up with a short list of resolutions that I hope will be 2010's accomplishments.

1. Post more on Livejournal. (my promise to Penelope )

2. Be more understanding. I get frustrated with people a lot in the past year, and in the long run, I keep asking myself, have I been too hard on them, am I not looking out for their interests as well. The last year has been bumpy, and I have been plenty selfish if I should say so myself. I hope the coming year would be better.

3. Structure my life better. I'll be moving out on my own soon, and I've had so many plans to structure my life so I can work more efficiently while still being able to have fun all the same. While staying with my parents, I keep having this nagging feeling that I'm being stifled, and this should be a good measure to see what I can achieve for myself. A better diet, a better work ethic, etc.

4. Start financial planning. I'm currently working now, and I've already taken up a car loan which will put me RM28000 in debt with the bank for Germaine. I hope to see myself in the black soon enough. One of the main reasons for working is to earn a living is it not? But also, to have fun in the mean time. LOL

5. Keep in touch. I've been shutting people out of my life for the past year or so. It's not intentional. But sometimes when life creeps up on you, and you're struggling to keep afloat in the sea. Everything else just drifts away. My apologies to my dear LJ friends, and the same to those who know me IRL. But, life just caught up with me, and I have every intention to claim it back.

How's that for a start? :)

Goodbye crazy 2009... hello 2010

A fitting end to a crazy 2009. Not only was there fun parties, which included drinking contests, cross-dressing a go-go dancers, lots of dice games, a quiet X'mas dinner, New Year kisses, but also spy movie scenes with cleaning out a house while bringing a fallen Chinese mafia head out for dinner. My life as a crazy jumble of blockbuster movie clips indeed. Hope the coming year wouldn't be as mad as the last.

Fact is stranger than fiction, but yeah. The last one week of 2009:

Fact 1: We had an Xmas dinner, with a pot roast, mashed potatoes and lots of wine.

Fact 2: We paid for 3 rounds of beer, but got 9 and one bottle of wine instead.

Fact 3: We spent Xmas countdown and New Year countdown at a pub, the same pub which featured a cross-dressing, obese a go-go counter dancer (I was hoping that the bar counter WOULD collapse, so that there would be more of a show), *censored*

Fact 4: *censored*

Fact 5: His house is like an abandoned shack, complete with creaking floorboards, cracked ceiling, layers of dust etc., but according to what I know, he's born with a diamond spoon, but estranged from his father because he remarried (though stepmother is a wonderful person and a doll), so he's working 3 jobs in KL instead of living off the contribution of his father.

Fact 6: We had dinner yesterday with an ex-Chinese mafia head, J's uncle who has been creating a lot of drama for him. While we were eating, our other friends cleaned out his house of Jasmond's belongings, including a laptop which the uncle was hogging, despite not being his. Something out of a spy movie, as we were having dinner with bated breath, and we were so worried we'd get back to early or he smelt a rat. Needless to say, we dropped him and his daughters off after dinner, and ran to the safe house laughing at the thought of the look on his face when he finds out we pulled a fast one.

Fact 7: I'm back in office, but dreaming about Thursday where I might be able to meet with the owners of the flat I'm looking at, and hopefully move in by the following week.

Fact 8: I have a write-up to complete and a meeting minutes to type up, but other than that, I'm free for the rest of the week because my manager is in Indonesia.

Fact 9: *censored*

Fact 10: I've actually forgotten to set up my own New Year's resolution despite asking everyone about theirs. ><" Hmm... I'm thinking if I missed anything...