Stress Levels

My smoking is going slightly overboard as the stress levels rise in the office over work. I have a project proposal to type up, while having to finish off some documentation work (aka hunting for a particular person to sign documents) and all the while serving as an office boy for my assistant manager. I think I'm now at the stage of a 25 pcs pack per 2 days.

However, I wonder if my head is screwed on right, for all while going through this, I'm actually getting weird opinions on romance and life in general. It's a part of my procrastination, I suspect. It just keeps cycling and cycling until I catch myself, and then I try to re-focus only to drift off in another direction. In fact, the conversation in my head goes as follows:
"Hmm, I want a bishounen as a boyfriend. *searches wiki article on bishounen* You know, maybe someone cute looking like Tomohisa Yamashita or Lee Dong-Hae *googles Dong-Hae*. Remember Juno? He was quite a cute dish *opens Juno's FB*, but then his features were lacking in finesse. In fact, I think I should get this 10kgs off *checks out wiki article on abdominal adipose tissue* and start dressing bishie as well, it's not like I don't have the looks *opens own FB for old photos*, just that sitting in front of the pantry in office and late night snacks are getting to me. Maybe a 1800 calorie diet should do. *clicks around the web for diet advice*... (continues for another hour)... ... Shit, I've been checking out stuff that I shouldn't have while I should have been researching on my proposal *head-desk*"

Oh, which by the way, I haven't seen nor heard from bf in a month, due to the hectic work life and distance. He's not replying my smses as well. Wonder what's going on. :/

Moving out

Hectic is the only adjective that I can think of to describe my current situation. The level of commitment that is required of me is worrisome to the extent that I'm wondering if I could only find a TARDIS somewhere hiding inconspicuously for my own pleasurable use.

I have moved out of my comfy room in the family house, and moved into the flat. Yes, the one I have been moaning about. Lucky for me, birds have stopped using the balcony as their communal toilet, though some of the yobs still do. The crawling fungal infestation seemed to have stopped. I guess the landlady showed them the door. The cement floor's still a cement floor, but I stopped by the wholesale district the other day to buy some bamboo mats, which helped a lot.

Now comes the issue. J has moved in as well with his dad, bf and Hong upon my invitation, which gives the place a nice cheery tinge. Makes me feel better to come home to a house where my close friends are around. However, I'm concerned over the fact that I'm the only one with a car and that the house is not exactly the coolest during the afternoons. Moreover, the wireless broadband signals suck in that area, and that we're like 20km away from "civilisation".

On top of that, I guess I spent a bomb on groceries etc. setting up the house, and am prolly gonna start living on biscuits and water for the next 2 weeks. LOL. Nah, I'm exaggerating. I go home almost every other week to raid the pantry, so it's not so much of an issue about groceries, but I'm slightly unnerved that the cost involved with 'freedom' is so high.

On the other hand, at work, it's slightly worrisome as my assistant manager who is above me is sort of keeping out of the loop from projects while the manager is too high up to see me around. I'm concerned with the amount of office politics that is floating around, though I'm lucky to have an eye and an ear from the MD and CFO whose children I'm teaching Mandarin as a favour and extra income.

Speaking of office politics, I finally get to meet most of the white collar staff here during a Team Building event last week. We ended up getting stranded in the middle of a forest resort, and were forced to climb a small hill every morning to get to the seminar room. But all's well ends well as I finally got to have a first hand encounter with the whole management structure in the company. Interesting thought.

And to conclude, some random pics I took from the chalets.